And artistically speaking, I like the idea of using plain muslin, something like the material of Jesus's burial shroud, and resurrecting it to be glorious. But still, it's muslin and will look like muslin, albeit with gold cording, etc. And mostly I'd use it because it's cheap.
My soul is saying, "I want to drape the sanctuary in beauty, swathe it in truly glorious fabrics! I want to celebrate the resurrection of Christ like I would celebrate the return to life of my husband if he had died. I want it to be rich and elegant and sumptuous. Overabundant. More than we can afford." I even found a fabric on-line that would fit beautifully what I envision:

But then we come back to cost. This fabric is $27.95/yard. We'd need at least 20 yards of it. How to pay for it? How to justify the money in these times of financial hardship for the church, and for us personally? I'm startled by the vigor of my yearning to go all out for this holiday—Easter has never been a big deal for me, and I tend much more to low-church simplicity and nontraditional decorations. So to feel so strongly drawn to swathe the sanctuary in white and gold silks is really antithetical to me. I'm not sure how to understand it. But I really really really don't want to go cheap this year.

I keep going back to the story in John 12 of Mary pouring perfume on Jesus' feet. Shall I be Mary in that story, or Judas? I'd love to find a way to be both! That's always been a tough story for me because I was raised to think like Judas, but I have the soul of Mary. I guess this is what Lent is about for me this year—my perpetual struggle between Judasness and Maryness. Practicality vs. Beauty. If I were independently wealthy, I wouldn't have to choose...
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